Set a Course

Consistency is more important than perfection. Creating discipline in your life is harder than the tasks you need the discipline to complete. It was one of those mornings. I wanted with every fiber of my being to hit snooze and just go back to sleep. Instead I got out of bed. I wanted so badly to just lay on the couch and set an alarm for 7:59 so I could login to my day job. Instead I made coffee and drank some water. It was tempting to sit in my chair and scroll my phone. Instead I did my morning journaling. Building the discipline to have good habits is a rough road and I argue and bargain and whine and rage against myself. Adding more habits in, adding more discipline in always feels impossible, monumental, or just unfeasible. But then that damn logic part of my brain pipes up and it doesn’t really care about all the emotions and the whining.

I’m not trying to sound deep, or dip into the philosophical or self help regions. I think that I have been doing alot of shadow work lately and the introspection and attempt to be impartial and objective about myself and my life leads me into some “deep thoughts”

I used to stress a bit about meeting my younger self and what would he think of me. I put that away because he was a kid and had no idea what he was doing, or what he wanted to become. I wonder sometimes if my future self would think the same thing about me right now.

This entry feels all over the place and maybe that’s where my head is today. What does any of this have to do with art or the comic or the store? Nothing, everything. One of the things I have told my kids in moments of advice was that all the little things add up, that you can’t really steer a ship if you don’t know where you want to go. I try very hard to follow my own advice. Turns out the philosopher Seneca had the same thought a few thousand years ago…

“If a man knows not which port he sails, no wind is favorable.”

So why am I getting up earlier than I need to? Why am I injecting more and more discipline into my life? Because I want something, because I want change. Small steps, little things here and there and consistency. Always consistency.

I wonder if my kids ever realize that any advice I give them was advice I wish I had been given…

Ok, enough brain dump for a Wednesday.

What is on the horizon? One of the biggest things for me in the very near future is the ability to be outdoors more; fresh air, wind, sun and rain. The smell of grass.

A campfire and the laughter of friends and family

Ok…back to work. Thanks for reading